I know you will wait for my explaination. :)
I took the form, I asked for the details, I wished to apply, I told you, I consider again..
I leave the form blank for months. I told myself I've to face it now not to running from it.
The deadline is nearer n nearer I should make my decision as fast as I could.
Okays, I told you I'm going to apply it and soon we can meet up there.
Yet, now I don't even complete the form and it's leave 5 days.
Well, I gave up. I know myself well I can't afford the work, it's too hard for me.
That day I opened the form, found that it needs 2 sureties
(one sure is my daddy, another one asked my aunt to be)
she asked me, you really like the work?
I started doubt myself , am I really like it or I just simply take the chance to leave here?
I was thinking about it for 3 days, and I got the conclusion.
I threw the form.
It's my future I can't fooling around with it. I'll suffer from it later on (because I don't like it)
I'm so sorry that I gave you my words but...
I hope you understand me. :)
Sorry again .
* will you forgive me?